Officially 21 days without you

It's officially 21 days without you. These days I am trying so hard to keep myself busy with all the stuffs so that I can get you out of mind. But why? Why are you still so constantly in it?:( 

I still love you, I really do. But I don't know how to stop that love. 

These 21 days, it seems like you are happier without me, happier without our rs. Was my concern that suffocating? Was my care too much? Or was it you really had someone deep inside your heart all along? 

I doubt you had long forgotten the meetup that I wanted, or maybe you did remembered but you didn't want a meetup cause you see no point. Or maybe you feel that it's helping me? I am so totally clueless 

慢慢地。。。

I reflected, I thought and still there were some stuffs which I won't ever understand. But I guess all these arent important at all now, I can only choose to leave you behind. I can only force myself to take baby steps to move forward; towards a future of my own. 

Somtimes I wonder if you still visit this site. This site which last time you name it as "honey's blog".. I was once your dearest honey you know? But now, what are we? 

We are just two souls leaving apart. Those two person who were once so close are now just so unfamiliar.. 

This one week seems like the longest time, everyday seems to drag. Day and night I miss you, miss you when I couldn't sleep and you would say you would pat me to sleep. Miss those moments when I say I stomachache and you will sayang my tummy. But where are you now? 

I guess I can only plant you in my dreams now. And meet you there..rmb all the dotes you had for me:(( 

I really miss you and the time we had together. 

从今以后的一个人...

淡淡的一句我们分手...

Today I walked past the streets near your blks, you weren't there to hold my hand anymore. You chose to let my hands go and not protect it anymore. 

I always always thought you doted on me and always wanted to work hand in hand in the rs with me. I gave my 110% love in the relationship and that night you left me stranded by telling me you wouldn't want to try anymore and you doubted how much was your love.

That feeling made me felt so lost, because even though time and again we had disagreements, I never once had the thought to let go... I never knew all those you did in the past one year, you still doubted your love. I was trying so hard to understand that love language, yet I never gave up.. 

Yet again, Maybe some stuffs are meant to be... If I hadn't been on the trip, maybe if I didnt complain too much... But still, you left.

从今以后我一个保护自己! 💪💪💪💪 加油! 

有那么的爱一个人过吗? 

那么那么的爱一个人，爱到我都把自己忘了。 

一千一万个问候就因为我还很爱你..

Growing up

Yes, maturing should be the word. But apparently I must admit that I don't want to mature yet. 

The society pushes you, the people around you pushes you to get into some stuffs whixh you don't even want to get into. Why is it so? 

A whole new level of surprises are awaiting me? 

I am having this internal conflict within myself. I aren't happy all the time. I know I should be, I should learn to be mature, learn to plan. 

昨天今天的我.

Blabbering continues. If you know what happened the night before, yes you are one of my closest friend. I went partying.. 

Partied real hard, I went mad on the dance floor and literally threw a person's face. I know I was at fault. I know I shouldn't do that but I don't know why the alcohol influenced me of all those actions. I just wanted an exclusive night with you and your friends. But all these thoughts were washed into the drain, I lost myself there. I portrayed myself in such a way that even your friends judge me now. 

I am sorry. And yes,no more partying ( with you). You wouldn't want to anymore too. I know I screwed everything up. 

I know that a million apologies won't gonna change this fact of you not wanting to party with me anymore.

Putting a smile upfront cause I know you want me to be happy. But deep down, I really do hate myself for screwing it up. 

天空

属于我的那片天空到底在哪?

从来都不多问。。。

I never once prey too much into that past, I never once looked into the mirror and wonder why I allow someone to step into my life and be my everything. I never once imagine that someone could matter so much to me that my mind automatically wakes me up in the middle of the night just to check on my phone and wonder if you reach workplace or school or home saftely. When i am out with friends, i constantly check on my phone cause i dont wanna lose a minute of time to msg you knowing your busy schedule. Sometimes I even think I worry about you more than I worry about myself. 

I never once question all these cause I know I love you. I worry so much cause I care. I teared as much cause I don't want to lose any part of you along the way. I care so much cause I love.

Its a fact, do you know? 

Officially missing you!

Yes, I miss home and definitely what I miss most is my baobei angel! She is just such a cutie! Never fail to lit a smile on my face whenever I am at my lowest point. Her angelic and innocent look just melts my heart instantly! Had been skyping family about twice and angel was either hiding when she hears my voice through the computer/phone or she will look amused with her ears moving about like a satellite, trying all means to capture the sound wave and thinking where did my voice came from! 

Pre departure photos taken at home. Usually she doesn't allow that much of pictures but she seem to understand what I was saying that day. I told her to sit on my lap and take pictures with me so I could look through while i was away. She sat on my laps quietly and when I ask okay? She gave me a kiss on my lips and really looked into the camera which I placed on the table. Such a cutie! 

Post 1: "hmmmmm. Okay proper one!"

Post 2: "hmmmm. I think you had taken enough pictures of me. My eyes are closing" 

Post 3: "hmm? What is that? Photos from a higher angle to make my face look slimmer? I think I know how to! "

Lastly, missing my boy so much!!!! 20 more days to our reunion day and 10 more days to the 11th monthsary! :)) love you boy!❤ love love love love so much and missed like a million tonne! Only have one boy in my heart and always only one!❤❤❤❤❤

Dar bought food over for my family member. 爱屋及乌! 

And yes, I missed him so much till I dropped down his name at the awesomely beautiful 7 sisters! 

Only you can make me smile like theseeeee~ smiling from the bottom of my heart!

Can't wait to see you soon boy!❤❤❤

Surpriseeeeeee~ poooootatooooo~ 

感情。。。那么那么的脆弱

So far away from home physically but the heart is always at home. 

Singapore our homeland cause that is where our heart can truly rest; where our heart can really seek consoles if needed, it is where the family members are. Family are always there for you, they don't judge you for who you are, but accept and try to make you better. That family love and bonding, I don't think anyone can explain it. 

3 years of undying love and all the promises were all washed down in 1 day. I can really feel her lost, literally feel the pain especially when so much attention was given before. 1 day was how much it takes for a man to change his heart, that was how much she meant for the past 3 years. No one knows the answer why was the sudden change, especially me and her. But it disappoints me to see a love like this ending, it makes me question how and what is true love.r What's most, it hurts me to see my friend suffering like this. I will protect you,I will be with you, I will accompany you and protect you like how your family would. Stay strong girl! 

Again, wondering how far love fetches you and how far love brings you. Reminds me of a phrase I saw online, falling in love is like giving your partner a gun to point at your heart but trusting him not to pull the trigger. ❤🔫

35 days without you by my side

First of all, happy 10th monthsary darling! :))  I don't need say much cause you know how much I feel for you, you know how much you meant to me and of course know how much I love you. 

You came over for a meal - one that I solely whipped up for and then I passed you a card that touched you. Later in the day we went for movies and finally redeemed my free yoguru which was topped with your favourite nata de coco!! I guessed the whole day I pretty much surprised you with all the stuffs I did? ✌

Western set Stanley, named by chef Tan

Yoguru with your favorite nata de coco

Us braving the haze together.

And lastly, i gonna end this post with a goodbye. 

I know that night when auntie asked if you were sad about me leaving for London, you were feeling real upset deep down. I know you just didnt want to show it cause you don't want it to upset me. Yes, 1 month might seem short. But yeah, it equates to more than 8 dates, countless calls time, I will miss you. Miss you more than anything darling.

Take care of yourself in Singapore! Cover yourself well from the haze!:) drink lots of water, and definitely try to have more rest! 

All the rest that I wanted to say was all on the card. You know me, you are my everything so if I go on blabbering,you might find me naggy! X) 

Lastly, still the same old sentence. I love you - that is enough to sum up everything. 

~ I could go days without meeting you, hours without talking to you, but not a second goes by that i am not thinking about you. ❤❤❤ ~

And by the time you read this post, I will probably be in the plane alr. ✈✈

Don't be upset dar, 1 month is not gonna be a big deal right? We braced so many stuffs together, this small thing isn't going to defeat us, but it will make us stronger! 

I want to thank you a million for helping me with the packing, trying to hard to squeeze everything and then sweating all over just because of my luggage and then also thank you for having dinner with my parents and driving my family back and fro. Everything you have done is deeply embedded in my mind, all these memories is enough to last me a lifetime to smile about. so no worries about the 1 month! 

And don't be upset about not being able to give me the present already, I will bring 2 of your tee shirts, think of you all day long and all night long when I sleep and maybe also dream of you!😘😘😘

Stay safe, stay healthy, stay happy and of course, Stay as loving as now!❤❤❤

世界那么大....

Trip to Taiwan and Hokkaido then back to Singapore was awesome, though at times I was just wandering on the streets alone or with mummy or daddy.

Peeping through the glass panels of the plane makes me question how big the world really is. Those ant-sized lights shimmer as though they are gems in the dark dark sky. Each and every blink represent a household; represent a living; represent how big the world really is. Those lights could represent an ordinary household like mine, but it could also mean a household struggling with living, it could represent a suffering lonely soul in the room. Each household have their lights shine brightly in the dark-that's where all the hearts are, the lights will guide us back to the warmest home, that's the most comfortable place.. 

The endless skyline - how big the would really is? And when/how could we know we have found the soulmate?

Don't give up hopes, the world is that magnificent and that huge. Some things are destined, some stuffs are meant to be. Just stay still and enjoy every moment cause some chances only come by once. :) 

牵手

感情应该很简单，不该让它复杂化。牵牵手，十指紧扣，我们一起走到最后。

My 🐛🐛🐛

Awww! Met up with my 🐛! 

You know some ppl are just so irreplaceable cause they care every bit about you:)) 

We chilled at a new cafe which I found- hungry chimps cafe. For that, I give myself a pat on my shoulder cause my wormy found the perfect spot she needed; a less crowded place where she can chill and relax, away from all the hectic work stuffs! 

Enjoyed the whole afternoon chilling with wormy and of course the part where I keep complaining about my shoes:/ 

 

 

Wormy's fav shot of me! ❤

Cheers to the friendship!❤

 

9 months of togetherness

"I heard on the radio that today's date means 我爱你一生. Just nice it is our 9 monthsary, so honey, 我爱你一生! "  ❤ thanks boy! I melted when you mentioned that. 

Though we didnt get to spend much time Tgt today, maybe about an hr? But those words held my heart so close to yours:)) 

Happy 9 months too Bb! 😊

I love you lotsa❤❤

 

The irony of life

It's gonna be a blank post cause I don't know how to pen it down in words with such headache. Goodnight peeps! 

The art of words

Words carrying such simplicity. 

Some phrases can bring your day down totally while some can bring you up to a new whole level of happiness. 

Hearing simple yet sweet stuffs makes me happy. 

"I really hope you will be a happy person"

"yeah i'll be with you around."

this phrases totally melts my heart. 

but at times, Reading into words by friends and family makes me unhappy. Such an irony right?

I wanna be that happy girl 😊

Smiling unknowingly

You came into my life that abruptly and stole every inch of my heart.

Scrolling through the lovebytes apps and looking at the timeline with all the photos, I was smiling so unknowingly to my phone. Your silliness, your actions, your humor, your maturity is what my heart fell for.

Boy, we don't know where our love will land. But I hope that love will end up somewhere good, somewhere great. I want to travel the world with you, share the awesome memories with you and hold you dearly wherever I go.

On the way to deliver your breakfasts to you:) hope you enjoy it!

Yayyyyyyyyy

I smell the air of freedoooomm! Holidays are finally here!:D
I am so so so looking forward to the London trip! 😊😊😊

一样的

Busy schedules, conflicting time, when can I have a full holiday? I am tired~ zzzz

Sometimes time just aren't on our side.cant have enough time with you cause you are always busy.i gotta understand.

All I ask for is a ......... ....... ...............

谁能给的？

你爸媽劈頭問我一句話 我不回答
他問我能不能給妳一個家 我愣在那
不回答不代表我沒有想法
不回答不代表掙扎
有些事心裡明白 卻不能夠明講
我沒有車 沒有錢 沒有房 只剩夢想
但未來的路實在太漫長 我也害怕
害怕讓她陪著我一起闖蕩
害怕她空轉了時光
所以我不說大話 怕說的比做的差
有些話不能表達 有些話當時我沒有講
但是我不會讓她陪我累喔
但是我不會讓她流眼淚
能給的我都給她 這是我心裡沒說的話
就算會累死我都不會怨喔 因為她就是我的全世界

我沒有車 沒有錢 沒有房 只剩夢想
轉載來自
但未來的路實在太漫長 我也害怕
害怕讓她陪著我一起闖蕩
害怕她空轉了時光
所以我不說大話 怕說的比做的差
有些話不能表達 有些話當時我沒有講
但是我不會讓她陪我累喔
但是我不會讓她流眼淚
能給的我都給她 這是我心裡沒說的話
就算會累死我都不會怨喔 因為她就是我的全世界

有些話不能表達 有些話當時我沒有講
但是我不會讓她陪我累喔
但是我不會讓她流眼淚
能給的我都給她 這是我心裡沒說的話
就算會累死我都不會怨喔 因為她就是我的全世界

是不是把能给的都给了？
这首歌视乎让我联系你想说的，但不知道我猜的对不对？

Down the memory lane <3

Scrolling down and up, up and down through the album named - us 😍
Memories seems to flash through, the quarrels that we had, the superb times we had, the sweet memories we share and the all other stuffs we did Tgt.

Knowing you for 8 months and having you as my dearest for 7months and 3 days is one of my biggest blessing.
I hope you will be there in the future; always be there. <3

I want to create a new future with you, want to spend all the other sweetest memories with you.but I know we aren't perfect, so let us grow and learn Tgt! Thank you for the past 7 months baby, thank you for the efforts and not giving up on me!😘

All the good food <3

The days of crazy assignments dates sticking so close to one another is finally over. All is done except for one! But in the mist of mugging for the last one, here we go on a food trail for the yummiest happy food!
But most happy food are only awesome with dearest people around!<3

Cheers to all the yummy food~

Busy period >.<

Not gonna blabber much but just gonna drop a note on I having to pull through these insane assignments and test dates!

Hang in there!💪

The little girl who is reaching out for the moon

By April 2013, I will be 22. And today, at nearly 3am of 22feb I am feeling honestly down.

Know how an evoluting caterpillar grows into a beautiful butterfly? It needs to shed off the cover.

Sometimes I feel that I don't really understand myself.what an irony right? Not understanding myself and expecting someone out there to understand me?

But I do realize something, I am graduating in less then 4 months time and must be ready to fight the realistic war.

I need to grow, I need to learn and I need to change.

Yet questions keep popping in my brain.

"Time to grow stronger?" I am trying. But change needs time. And will there be someone to hold me when I fall? Will there be anyone?

Insecurity. One of the distinctive stuffs that I dislike about myself is being sensitive and insecure about stuffs.i should learn, learn to be a mature lady who is ready for the world regardless of how it ends or who comes along the way.

One thing that I definitely know, I love with all my heart and I am genuine to all that comes; additionally, I dislike being burden and hate being a cry baby but I don't know why tears flow that easily out of me.i should learn to control that tear bladder there.


Goodnight folks.

想很多~

看了很多，想了很多。
另一颗时空真的存在吗？有时不自觉的想想，在另一个时空里的我们会是如何？还会相爱吗?会恩恩爱爱，白头偕老吗？

因为在这个时空的我，很希望能如此。很希望能爱你很久。❤
你也一样吗？

Blogging this while this boy is sleeping so soundly!

In a blink of eye!

In a blink of eye, My eyes was glued to this boy for 5 months ;)

Ups and downs like the roller coaster rides we had at USS, our relationship had got through the troughs. But after the ride you would feel that sense of achievements and be very much sure of how much you love the other party.

This month, we had a simple celebration but we both know how this simplicity has brought us happiness.

Happy 5th month boy! And cheers to a many more! Xoxo~

Ps, I can't wait for sth to come! Hehehe!

Start of a last semester.

Here it goes, 3 days of school has already pass by. I am seeing more of new faces in the class and its making me scared.cause all these girls are just so Pretty and hardworking. >.<
These days, the topics are only always related to work, job, finding, School,projects, future studies. These topics are those that are bombarding me! But don't worry, slowly one by one, I will haunt down all of them:)))

Side note, these days, the stories of the heart are indeed making me more skeptical than ever. Please, let this year be a good one.
note: realize they have to treasure before the passion dies, treasure before the other party turns away, treasure those who are sincere and true to you ppl! ❤

New year; new beginnings :)

They say a picture paints a thousand words, so here I go, time to post some pictures after so long!
Spent the first day of 2013 with my dearest. Cheers to more of those days like ytd!
But yes, 2013 is here and I am graduating this year.
My god~ *screammmmmmsss*

Boy, don't kill me for the pics! I just find then so cute! hehehe!