Growing up

Yes, maturing should be the word. But apparently I must admit that I don't want to mature yet. 

The society pushes you, the people around you pushes you to get into some stuffs whixh you don't even want to get into. Why is it so? 

A whole new level of surprises are awaiting me? 

I am having this internal conflict within myself. I aren't happy all the time. I know I should be, I should learn to be mature, learn to plan. 

昨天今天的我.

Blabbering continues. If you know what happened the night before, yes you are one of my closest friend. I went partying.. 

Partied real hard, I went mad on the dance floor and literally threw a person's face. I know I was at fault. I know I shouldn't do that but I don't know why the alcohol influenced me of all those actions. I just wanted an exclusive night with you and your friends. But all these thoughts were washed into the drain, I lost myself there. I portrayed myself in such a way that even your friends judge me now. 

I am sorry. And yes,no more partying ( with you). You wouldn't want to anymore too. I know I screwed everything up. 

I know that a million apologies won't gonna change this fact of you not wanting to party with me anymore.

Putting a smile upfront cause I know you want me to be happy. But deep down, I really do hate myself for screwing it up. 

天空

属于我的那片天空到底在哪?