从来都不多问。。。

I never once prey too much into that past, I never once looked into the mirror and wonder why I allow someone to step into my life and be my everything. I never once imagine that someone could matter so much to me that my mind automatically wakes me up in the middle of the night just to check on my phone and wonder if you reach workplace or school or home saftely. When i am out with friends, i constantly check on my phone cause i dont wanna lose a minute of time to msg you knowing your busy schedule. Sometimes I even think I worry about you more than I worry about myself. 

I never once question all these cause I know I love you. I worry so much cause I care. I teared as much cause I don't want to lose any part of you along the way. I care so much cause I love.

Its a fact, do you know? 

Officially missing you!

Yes, I miss home and definitely what I miss most is my baobei angel! She is just such a cutie! Never fail to lit a smile on my face whenever I am at my lowest point. Her angelic and innocent look just melts my heart instantly! Had been skyping family about twice and angel was either hiding when she hears my voice through the computer/phone or she will look amused with her ears moving about like a satellite, trying all means to capture the sound wave and thinking where did my voice came from! 

Pre departure photos taken at home. Usually she doesn't allow that much of pictures but she seem to understand what I was saying that day. I told her to sit on my lap and take pictures with me so I could look through while i was away. She sat on my laps quietly and when I ask okay? She gave me a kiss on my lips and really looked into the camera which I placed on the table. Such a cutie! 

Post 1: "hmmmmm. Okay proper one!"

Post 2: "hmmmm. I think you had taken enough pictures of me. My eyes are closing" 

Post 3: "hmm? What is that? Photos from a higher angle to make my face look slimmer? I think I know how to! "

Lastly, missing my boy so much!!!! 20 more days to our reunion day and 10 more days to the 11th monthsary! :)) love you boy!❤ love love love love so much and missed like a million tonne! Only have one boy in my heart and always only one!❤❤❤❤❤

Dar bought food over for my family member. 爱屋及乌! 

And yes, I missed him so much till I dropped down his name at the awesomely beautiful 7 sisters! 

Only you can make me smile like theseeeee~ smiling from the bottom of my heart!

Can't wait to see you soon boy!❤❤❤

Surpriseeeeeee~ poooootatooooo~ 

感情。。。那么那么的脆弱

So far away from home physically but the heart is always at home. 

Singapore our homeland cause that is where our heart can truly rest; where our heart can really seek consoles if needed, it is where the family members are. Family are always there for you, they don't judge you for who you are, but accept and try to make you better. That family love and bonding, I don't think anyone can explain it. 

3 years of undying love and all the promises were all washed down in 1 day. I can really feel her lost, literally feel the pain especially when so much attention was given before. 1 day was how much it takes for a man to change his heart, that was how much she meant for the past 3 years. No one knows the answer why was the sudden change, especially me and her. But it disappoints me to see a love like this ending, it makes me question how and what is true love.r What's most, it hurts me to see my friend suffering like this. I will protect you,I will be with you, I will accompany you and protect you like how your family would. Stay strong girl! 

Again, wondering how far love fetches you and how far love brings you. Reminds me of a phrase I saw online, falling in love is like giving your partner a gun to point at your heart but trusting him not to pull the trigger. ❤🔫