this choking feeling in my throat

this is all that paints the feeling i have deep within me now

everyone that reads this is commenting that i havent been updating this secret place. why?cause i am so lazy to on my computer nowadays. i practically am lazy to do anything these days.maybe i am getting too old?

the above picture paints all the feelings i have now.
when the age catches up with us,we look around and realize quite a bit of the stuffs no longer used to be the same.the expectation from others to you,the expectation on yourself,the loneliness, the list just isnt exhaustive.you just get so tired of practically of everything. just so sick that you dont want to whisper a single word for fear that it brings a heavy responsibility that you wouldn't want to carry.

i just got woke up with a 7 hours of sleep by a loud shot of "DO YOU HAVE A BRAIN?" plus a Loud bang on the door. yesterday i was scolded yet again for not knowing he wants to hand up the defect list.
do you want to know who is that he?yes, he is my dad.
i aren't angry with him anymore. rather i am disappointed with myself. do you know that feeling that suffocates you cause you find yourself so amusingly stupid and careless?
i am having that now.

okay. enough of my blabber.

i met up with shu ling ytd. it's just amazing that i can talk to her for hours and i never get tired from it.
if you had asked me what i am most thankful about,i am sure having friends like Shu Ling is an asset to me.
Sarang~

AND!
 Lastly, let this post end on a happy note.
WORMY is attached.with Belle getting attached Soon!
for wormy,i don't know how to spell that word "HAPPY" when i heard the news from her.i know she had to meet someone who treasured her.she is like a gem that needs lots of love,care and concern.she has found her "gem" that loves her for who she is, love her like a buddy,love her like a little princess.
go on wormy and her prince,stay blissful!

for belle, i am just so excited about her great leap of faith.i applaud for that leap cause that was what i always prayed for her.go on,take the bigger leap with that boy,you will reach somewhere.i am sure of that,the somewhere that you will reach will be a palace named -blissful forever.

these are people who are so special that no words can describe their importance to me.
bless them (: