in fact,i havent got over it at all.i thought i had,i thought i had placed lots and lots of layers over the wound to make it less painful,to tell myself time will heal the pain.but it fact it hasn't.the pain is just right there,the miss is still there.but i guess i will really have to let go fully now,cause you chose where heart is now,and it's just right with her,she took over your heart.and yahs,i am feeling mixed now.i am happy for you,happy for her,but yahs,i feel that pain.
or maybe i had been trying to put up a show acting like i am okays when i arent?i don't know.but i think it doesn't matter anymore,you got your life,i got my life.i guess slowly,we might be the most distant friend that one could ever be.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
at 12 when the clock ticks...
this is what i saw in chze hao's fb,this cute guy is falling in love! and i totally agree to what he says...
其实,想念一个人也可以是甜蜜的..因为这是单方面的举动,最私人的空间,别人拿不走也管不了..是一种不需要回应的乐趣：）
loving someone can be painful,it can be sweet. sweet+bitter=thats what ppl term as love.i lknow you love her
其实,想念一个人也可以是甜蜜的..因为这是单方面的举动,最私人的空间,别人拿不走也管不了..是一种不需要回应的乐趣：）
loving someone can be painful,it can be sweet. sweet+bitter=thats what ppl term as love.i lknow you love her
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
don't judge a book by it's cover..
i met up with beat rice ytd night! at 9+ pm at starbucks cause she want to lend my stats book to do the work,and we chatted till the cows came home..reach home around 12+,it's really interesting,we are in the same sch,same course,but we dont get to talk to each other.i think i am so dead.everyone's starting work except me!i think i must on my engine fast fast!!!!let is run at 4th gear!
oh ya~i am starting to love driving,it's so fun manipulating the gears,though it's scary,but it's really fun!:D
i got a superb instructor ytd,i was so happy!he didin't touched or say anything that made me feel uncomfortable,he taught me how to correct my mistakes and didn't waste any time with me!i like him!<3and,i am going driving today,i hope i get a nice instuctor too!hope i get sam loi,he is a good instuctor too!
went back to ijc with wormy ytd and met our dearest ms ang!we were jumping around when we saw her,i just love her!she made me got a B for chem,for U to B leii!(though that's the only good result)but i still wish to thank her for her patience...and wormy,i missed spedning the times with her.a simple meal,a feew hours of talk even under the sorching crazy sun,i enjoyed it...i love my wormy!
thanks for protecting me dearies...protecting me all kind of ways.thanks!:D
oh ya~i am starting to love driving,it's so fun manipulating the gears,though it's scary,but it's really fun!:D
i got a superb instructor ytd,i was so happy!he didin't touched or say anything that made me feel uncomfortable,he taught me how to correct my mistakes and didn't waste any time with me!i like him!<3and,i am going driving today,i hope i get a nice instuctor too!hope i get sam loi,he is a good instuctor too!
went back to ijc with wormy ytd and met our dearest ms ang!we were jumping around when we saw her,i just love her!she made me got a B for chem,for U to B leii!(though that's the only good result)but i still wish to thank her for her patience...and wormy,i missed spedning the times with her.a simple meal,a feew hours of talk even under the sorching crazy sun,i enjoyed it...i love my wormy!
thanks for protecting me dearies...protecting me all kind of ways.thanks!:D
Sunday, July 11, 2010
schools' starting and assignments are running in..
RUN run RUN~ assignments are rolling in and it's making me stressing up man.i dont know where to start,where to end,where to hide. i havent got adjusted to school and the next minute the projects are coming.and the ppl in uni are diff,very diff,esp guys, they have very distinct plans in mind of what they want and they are chionging straight there!(buff man esp) but i admire them,they are strong ppl with determined minds!
somethings are just best kept as memories;kept in the box tittled the sweetest memory...
somethings are just best kept as memories;kept in the box tittled the sweetest memory...
Monday, July 5, 2010
the strong girl outside..
yeah,whoever you are,you are right,i am acting strong outside.but now,i am tired.tired mentally,i need a break.a break to take off all my strong exterior to cry out aloud once more.maybe just because i am sick now,i dont have the energy to fight the thoughts in my mind now.i will just quietly let my mind do the job of healing.time past,wounds heal.
call me silly,call my stupid.at 11.11pm/am,i heard from belle that whenever you see 11.11,angels are around you,make a wish and it will come true.i would always quietly pray for you,pray for you to get well.jiayous!(:i wishh to see my phone ring
call me silly,call my stupid.at 11.11pm/am,i heard from belle that whenever you see 11.11,angels are around you,make a wish and it will come true.i would always quietly pray for you,pray for you to get well.jiayous!(:i wishh to see my phone ring
Saturday, July 3, 2010
ching teng + siew mai...
went to sch on a saturday,it was a totally tiring..and the best thing is it is at 830am in the morning! 3 hours computing session where the lecturer starts talking and no one knows what she is saying...so i was practically stoning in the lecture till i realise i shouldnt be spending my time like that~so i asked around and no one taught me!>.< say they dont know..
i turned my chair around and asked the guy behind me,he tried explaining and i forgot to ask his name too.he came over to my seat and thought me the stuffs(actually he was helping me do 3 pages of the work) so the rest of my classmates was like laughing till they want fall off the chair,say i purposely pretend dont know,take his pic and mine...and,another classmate was like suddenly telling me what to click and stuffs,so i was like staring at her,saying:i thought you say you dont know how to do?!?!. she rebutted and say now she know how to do le.so there it goes again,my face was like this---> =.=
then my sister kept wanting to drag me to town when i was already so tired.she just wanted me to accompany her to get a haircut.but in the end,she was going to meet her friend,so got her haircut at causeway pt.i went to have ching teng and siew mai with daddy while waiting!
it's just a normal $2 ching teng with $2 siew mai,but it left me with to many things,i shared my thoughts with daddy about life,shared my thoughts about how i think i have grown. at first,he was saying i still have a very long way to be mature,saying i am immature and stuffs.but when we started talking,he was like practically listening and agreeing.
there was this one moment when i turned and look at daddy,i realised he had grown,he had aged.he is still the old sweet daddy i have,the daddy who loves to share alot of view about life,the daddy that never beats me regradless of what i did but always try his best to use his view about life to educate me,the daddy who always thinks he didnt spend enough time on us because he always had to be out stationed.but daddy has aged,i was searching for the wrinkles he has,searching for the usual look on his face.
my heart ached when i was staring at him,my heart was aching when i told him about the children at awwa,telling him how strong willed they are,how they can't choose what they want in life but yet trying hard to let the society accpet them for who they are.there it was,second time in my whole life,my daddy was crying,first time in public.tears were collecting in his eyes as thoughts of the people in madagascar filled his mind.but admit the fact,one person can only do a very small part to help,we just have to try hard to help anyone that we can help,do the smallest thing to help!(:
daddy,a simple meal makes my love for you grow fonder.
daddy,be strong because i love you.
daddy,i may be the immature little girl in your eyes,but i will prove to you one day that i have grown and take very good care of you,like how you used to shower me with love.
daddy,don't feel bad about not always being there in our lives because i know you are doing your job.
daddy,i love you for who you are.
daddy,i just want to shout out to you,I LOVE YOU! <3
i turned my chair around and asked the guy behind me,he tried explaining and i forgot to ask his name too.he came over to my seat and thought me the stuffs(actually he was helping me do 3 pages of the work) so the rest of my classmates was like laughing till they want fall off the chair,say i purposely pretend dont know,take his pic and mine...and,another classmate was like suddenly telling me what to click and stuffs,so i was like staring at her,saying:i thought you say you dont know how to do?!?!. she rebutted and say now she know how to do le.so there it goes again,my face was like this---> =.=
then my sister kept wanting to drag me to town when i was already so tired.she just wanted me to accompany her to get a haircut.but in the end,she was going to meet her friend,so got her haircut at causeway pt.i went to have ching teng and siew mai with daddy while waiting!
it's just a normal $2 ching teng with $2 siew mai,but it left me with to many things,i shared my thoughts with daddy about life,shared my thoughts about how i think i have grown. at first,he was saying i still have a very long way to be mature,saying i am immature and stuffs.but when we started talking,he was like practically listening and agreeing.
there was this one moment when i turned and look at daddy,i realised he had grown,he had aged.he is still the old sweet daddy i have,the daddy who loves to share alot of view about life,the daddy that never beats me regradless of what i did but always try his best to use his view about life to educate me,the daddy who always thinks he didnt spend enough time on us because he always had to be out stationed.but daddy has aged,i was searching for the wrinkles he has,searching for the usual look on his face.
my heart ached when i was staring at him,my heart was aching when i told him about the children at awwa,telling him how strong willed they are,how they can't choose what they want in life but yet trying hard to let the society accpet them for who they are.there it was,second time in my whole life,my daddy was crying,first time in public.tears were collecting in his eyes as thoughts of the people in madagascar filled his mind.but admit the fact,one person can only do a very small part to help,we just have to try hard to help anyone that we can help,do the smallest thing to help!(:
daddy,a simple meal makes my love for you grow fonder.
daddy,be strong because i love you.
daddy,i may be the immature little girl in your eyes,but i will prove to you one day that i have grown and take very good care of you,like how you used to shower me with love.
daddy,don't feel bad about not always being there in our lives because i know you are doing your job.
daddy,i love you for who you are.
daddy,i just want to shout out to you,I LOVE YOU! <3
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