Officially 21 days without you

It's officially 21 days without you. These days I am trying so hard to keep myself busy with all the stuffs so that I can get you out of mind. But why? Why are you still so constantly in it?:( 

I still love you, I really do. But I don't know how to stop that love. 

These 21 days, it seems like you are happier without me, happier without our rs. Was my concern that suffocating? Was my care too much? Or was it you really had someone deep inside your heart all along? 

I doubt you had long forgotten the meetup that I wanted, or maybe you did remembered but you didn't want a meetup cause you see no point. Or maybe you feel that it's helping me? I am so totally clueless